I have looked at life as a race and everything I have done or will do as achievements or goals. It has to MEAN something and bring me further to fulfillment and praise and accomplishment or whatever reward I think it should come out to be.
It’s not about having fun or doing something just because I like it. It has to be highly regarded and approved. Mostly by society or potential strangers I meet. And even when I do achieve something I feel like it’s never good enough and doesn’t matter and I can see why that can lead to disappointment and feelings of emptiness. I compare myself too much to people that other than having achieved things or HAVE things I want they are not the type of person I want to be or even really be remembered as.
I want those people who don’t give a damn about me anymore and the people who are actually proud of me or care for me..
….Byang…:]
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