Things are not going right at all, I have so many feelings inside of me. I feel like I'm going to explode. I don't know how to handle this. I can normally block out emotions, but it's so hard to do it this time. This time it's different. It's not just a oh someone made me mad. I'm so stressed out, sad, mad, and I'm confused. I try coming up with solutions, and when it feels like we are making a little bit of progress, it fails. I don't know how to sort out my emotions, I feel like screaming all the time. I don't know how much more I can control myself. I'm trying so hard to deal with this.
I hate being poor, I never want this in my future. I have been poor most of my life, we have had to struggle my whole life.
Most people don't do anything in their lives that is meaningful. People think its just one big party, and that your suppose to just live for the day, no regrets. No, that is not how it is, or not how it is suppose to be. There is consequences for every single action that you do,
I just feel like giving up. I wish when I'm sad, and talking to someone about it or when someone just knows I'm sad, I just wish they would surprise me and show up on my door step, without me knowing.
I hate that I am always wanting to talk about the future, and no one brings it up. I don't want to force it on anyone. I just want this to happen..
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